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I forget. No, really. It's just been slipping my mind to do so many things lately. Log an entry, post at NB, (Kit, when do you think you'll pop up on AIM again, hmm?), work on my site, write my fic... I've been getting nothing done.

And I know exactly why.

Damn lithium.

See, when I first sought help for my mood swings, I went to the wrong place. August F. Hawkins Mental Health Center. Why is it wrong? Well, one, it's a county facility. Two, it's connected to King/Drew Medical Center. This hospital is also lovingly referred to as "Killer King". This is because, unless it's a gunshot or knife wound, or an uncomplicated delivery, your chances of survival re slim and none. My own uncle died on the table while having exploratory surgery. Apparently the idiots didn't think to look at his medical history and see he'd had surgery done before, so he'd have scar tissue to work with. No... they snip... snip... and snipped the wrong thing, which resulted in his bleeding to death because they couldn't see where'd they cut wrong.

So back to the mental health facility... I shouldn't have gone, pure and simple. Based solely on my descriptions of my problem, the intake doctor said I was bi-polar and wrote up a prescription of lithium. No schedule appointments with a therapist. No other questions. Nothing.

Now I will agree to the bi-polar diagnosis, because reading the symptons and effects of it, I think I probably am. But I'm a mild case. It was worse when I was a teenager, which makes sense, considering all the hormonal crap I was going through on top of that. But I don't suffer extreme mood swings now without a trigger, which I'm able to identify and avoid. Honestly, I don't think I need such a strong medication. Hmph, mom needs something more than I do. Talk about extreme moods... sheesh.

Getting back on the subject, I went to the wrong place. They're known for overmedicating their patients, both in and out. And as soon as I saw my chance, I switched to another clinic. I'm much happier now, but there's still the problem with the drug....

I have to keep taking it up until Tuesday. I'm having blood drawn and it will show up if I don't take it. However, after that I plan to stop, and later that week I'm talking to my therapist and requesting something milder. At this point, it's doing more harm than good.

I'm too easily distracted now. I'll never get anything done if this keeps up...