After reading what I could about bi-polar specifically and depression in general (and realizing I have been screwed by my parents genes) I shall head off to bed with this bit I recall reading in my ex-therapist's office (while waiting for her to show up):
"People who suffer from depression often trigger their condition when they become introspective. Contemplation, especially alone, has been known to cause distinct mood swings, usually feelings of worthlessness and/or lonliness. If continued unchecked, this can lead into a more acute period of depression, which begins the cycle."
Sorry, can't remember the book or I'd list it.
Basically, left to my own thoughts, I'll trigger my own depression?
....well, I guess I'm screwed. Good night everybody.
