"Incense and Annoyance in A minor"
12 / 17 / 02
lethargic
Haven't done Xmas shopping for yet another day. At this rate, the packages will be shipped late. My fault? If it were I wouldn't bitch about it.
I've been getting headaches every day for a week, more, I believe. I'm sure it's the stress of the current situation, which I know I've been whining about for far too long and far too much. Well now I'm worried, because I'm finding an excessive need for painkillers just so I can function.
Last thing I need is a freakin' addiction on top of the usual madness.
Due to an increase of blemishes on my face, I bought (after searching long and hard) some [more] Herbal Logix. Good stuff, but one problem... I can't use the bathroom the way I want.
Seriously. The sink is better left unsaid, the floor is usually damp, and truly enraging, someone's been using my washcloth. I may have mentioned it before, I can't remember, but fuck. You know it's not yours. You know you don't live here....
Okay, perhaps unfair of me. The twins are mentally challenged (lack of oxygen at birth, I'm told). But, their sister should see to it they know not to freakin' use anything that is not theirs. Is that too much to ask?
I won't get into the mother unit, since a lot of this is her own fault. I feel for her, I empathize with her, and I'm annoyed with her all at once.
Worse about all of this, I feel so profoundly cheated. The original plan was for a quiet December. After the self-inflicted but highly satisfying stress of NaNoWriMo, December was going to be the wind down period, then boom, a new year. HAH. That will teach me.
Next December I don't want to be around mom. She subconsciously sets herself up for some kind of unneeded stress and drags everyone down with her. Sorry, mother, I'm not a masochist.
But again, cheated, because I normally like Xmas. I enjoy dealing with the tree, despite the muttered curses when I'm putting up the lights. One of my favourite pastimes is to go into the living room late at night and just watch the lights reflecting off the exorbitant amount of tinsel used. (My preference is white lights.)
I enjoy wrapping gifts. I treat each wrapped but untrimmed gift as a blank canvas and see how can I trim this in a way to really make it stand out. A lot of people have felt bad opening the gift because I'd put so much time into decorating it. They didn't want to mess it up.
I enjoy some of the animated Xmas specials (and screw the fact that I'm not a kid). I don't care what anyone says, Garfield is funny.
I really enjoy making innuendos and comments with mom when we watch Mikhail in The Nutcracker.
Basically, I enjoy just peaceful moments without the over the top, blatantly commercialistic side of the holidays.
At this point, the only thing remotely Xmas like in my room is a red ribbon I'm planning to tie to my monitor somehow. We can't put the tree up because they're mainly sleeping in the living room, which is small on a good day. With two air mattresses, it feels like a damn barracks.
...and I promised myself I wouldn't bitch. So much for that.
It's hard not to feel the way I do, though. I can't enjoy what I normally would be doing right now. It's the 18th, that's less than a week.
Forget the Whos, the Grinch stole my Xmas.
It's times like this I wish I was closer to my relatives in KCity, because damn the loss of internet, at least I'd be somewhere quiet and winding down while the lights flicker and grant me the illusion of fireflies living in my tree.
Well, before I end this whiny bit...
Kit: Course Jasmine can come. Maybe I can convince my brother to show up just for the hell of it. (Could be easier, since he has Access, which is like a taxi service for the handicapped and much cheaper.) Any place you have in mind?
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No ideas whatsoever! I normally suggest Weller Court, because that's where Kinokuniya is and it's closest to where the bus stops (line 078; at least, the one I take). Easy walking distance to the restaurants in the next plaza over.
We'll have to meet sometime between the 20th and the 28th if you want Jasmine to come, because that's the only time she's going to be able to get to me. ^^
You can get peace and quiet in Little Tokyo! . . . er, well, more peace and quiet than you seem to be getting at home.
Well then, I can give you your manga in person. **slams head against desk** I am such a RETARD.
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Doi. I forgot to add a link to a nifty map which will show you where Weller Court is.
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There.
( 9:22 pm )