"emotional blackmail."
08 / 17 / 02
General
Tomorrow I become older. The question is, do I become wiser. I'm not sure, but I definitely become a hell of a lot more cynical... and maybe a touch more lonely.
Before anyone asks, (because one already did), as to my self-proclaimed anti-social tendencies, allow me to explain. One, I was forced to be as such to protect my own feelings and Self. Two, I'm anti-social when it comes to crowds. I prefer the individual over the masses. Three, I'm an introvert. The more time I'm around a group of people, the more energy is taken away from me, and at a faster rate. But with the individual, it's a slower pull, and one that can easily be recharged with shorter breaks between.
And my, I do love those tangents, don't I?
And let me go off into another one...
Why, if I'm asked a question, or rather, a favour, then I'm emotionally blackmailed into doing it after I say no, does the person responsible bother asking me in the first place? If that's the case, if I really don't have a choice, then don't ask me and lead me to believe that I do. Don't give me a false choice if the truth is I can only 'choose' the one option.
But of course, I can't actually go back to the source and complain about this one, again.
She admitted that I'm better at hiding my depression and mood swings moreso than she and him.
But has she ever once considered why?
I keep trying to get out of my current depression. I hate imbalanced chemicals, I really do. And only someone who suffers bi-polar (i.e. diagnosed by a professional) could understand.
I take that back. My mother suffers it, and she's said some of the most insensitive things to me regarding my own depression.
I'm in a lose/shit situation, apparently.
(And crudmuffins, my Angel Sanctuary artbook I ordered is on backorder.)
::sigh::
Well, one tiny bright spot. Kit, I don't now about flaws, but I think you picked appropriate pics. Gave me a small chuckle to see your latest 'paper.
I go and work on Luonn now... my chimeric angel...
Sorry, spammers forced my hand. Comments reviewed before being published.
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