"Morning miff and disjointed thoughts"
07 / 26 / 02
General
I doubt if I log anything else besides this today, and you'll be lucky to see me tomorrow.
For charity... must remember... for charity...
One thing I will log, because apparently my mind has decided to put me in a sour mood about it. (Thank you, mr. brain...)
That crap about there being someone for everyone is a bunch of bullshit.
Now I could go on a tirade about this, and believe it, it'd be a long one, but I won't. This is what I believe at this moment of my (unwelcomed) existance. And until something proves otherwise, I'm sticking to it.
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I have a friend who is only 3 years younger than I, who seems to think old jokes (at my expense) made in light jest are humourous. I'm not fucking amused. I know I'm going to be 27. I know I don't have much to show for it. I'd like to see someone else get themselves out of the hellhole I'm in (unless you've lived in the ghetto, don't even think about comparing anything to it). I would love to be able to go back to school. (And fix those grades, because damnit, I'm smarter than that. But I keep bucking the system, to my detriment. Why the hell can't I read a literary masterpiece just because it's not on the pre-assigned list, which is made of of supposed classics that aren't much more than dribble because the writer was getting paid by the word?!)
But I can't. I can't afford it. And I freak out when I get in public (though one can't tell by just looking at me). I hate masses, you see.
I would love to be a programmer, or a web designer, or maybe a music engineer... but I can't get the stupid piece of paper saying that I'm any of these things because either I don't have the money, or I won't play the little games required of me by the education system.
And old jokes just remind me of all of this.
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Now, I'm going to go and forget this entry ever happened. I probably need more sleep, even though my brain acts like I don't. I'm not going to listen, though.
Goddess, if you would be so kind, just let me get a Garfield mug today before Fate comes back to do something I probably won't like.
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