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(8:43 am PT) - Overcast days offer peace
[link] - (nostalgic)

The internet has become a bit of a lonely place for me of late. Especially since I'm holding off on any new projects until this whole move deal gets finalised. After that, we're giving ourselves a 3 year timeplan to save up (300 a month) and see if we can join one of those homebuyer programs and just be done with it. I'm tired of L.A. I'm tired of Southern California. Time to head north.

Blegh.

Kalli, just to be sure, it's Kadaj, Loz, Yazoo/Yazu, and Denzel I need to add to the original FF7 for an AC character list? (Okay, I'll admit, Yazu doesn't look as funny as Yazoo, but they both sound funny to me. TLK remnents.)

Kit, I was on AIM last night, but I guess you ddin't see me. Tonight?

The B-unit is 22 today. I can't believe this is the same person who I used to play make-believe games with as kids. I miss those days.

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(9:32 am PT) - End of an era
[link] - (nostalgic)

Over the coming months, I'm going to slowly eradicate yaoiville.com.

I simply didn't know enough coding to make what still is a good idea work. Besides, the idea I originally wanted I now have with yaoiville.net. Not to mention, that's $15 a month going to a site I don't do anything with.

And the html code. Oh fates, it's so ugly. I want to cry as I look at it now.

First thing to be moved will be the old book of Genism. I don't know if I want to move it or close it completely. I'll have to think. But at the very least I want to convert it. I try not to use perl programs anymore, and that's still sitting on the very old and clunky greymatter.

In a word, ew.

Things change. One day I'll be little more than a wispy memory in someone's mind. That's okay. Live, learn, then you keel over.

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(11:20 pm PT) - Anniversary
[link] - (nostalgic)

I'm slipping this under the wire of midnight, PDT. (Have I mentioned I hate daylight savings?)

It's an anniversary of sorts for me. Seems the current incarnation of Locuran has been around for three years now to the date. Hard to believe. Actually, seems like it's been longer, but that's what the date says. ::looks around:: Nope, I don't see myself changing it any time soon. Not because I don't like change, but because it's just comfortable the way it is. The same as my computer chair. I'll toss that when it breaks, and not a day sooner.

Going back to the archives, the first post is hardly momentous or any such thing, but I'm going to post it anyway, because it pretty much sums up what I'm going to do tonight.

"Well, the new software is in place. "Old Archives" link is just that, old archives. Anyway, I'm a bit tired (this wasn't easy), so I'm going to turn on my aire freshener, pop in my Sacred Spirit Drums CD, and try to get some rest or relax or something. I say try, because the people in this complex... no comment. Ciao."

Like I said then... Ciao.

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(12:36 pm PT) - Nostalgia Week closes
[link] - (nostalgic)

Alas, all good things come to an end. (Unlike bad things that hang around like luggage.) While I fell behind a little during the second half of NEXT, I made a discovery that probably wouldn't have happened if I'd not done NW. I thought TRY was rather Lina-centric, but no, NEXT was. At least Try gave a clear-cut reason on why it would centre on her, and in the end it was still more of a group effort, much like the first half of season 1. But all of NEXT had this 'Lina and her supporting cast' feel to it, without really having a good reason or explanation for it. (The one given towards the end felt like it was pulled out the hat at the last minute.)

Not to say NEXT is bad. It's got quite a few gem episodes, not the least of which for a Zel-femme like me is the Lake Dragon ep, and the obligatory men in drag ep. But when it comes to the climatic fights, everyone else really got shafted in terms of importance to the action/plot.

And while I'm aware the original novels were in fact focused on Lina, the problem comes in when, looking at season one, it builds on a group dynamic, so you come to expect and even want for that.

All in all, when trying to be funny, NEXT does a splendid job. But when serious, it leaves me wanting for those support characters.

Now comes the fun, (and intended) part of Nostalgia Week: seeing if the revisit drums up some old inspiration.

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(7:50 pm PT) - Nostaligia Week: day 1
[link] - (nostalgic)

After talking to Mirchan yesterday, decided that Nostalgia Week would be extended to the coming Monday, and next year would fall on the third Monday of January. Easier to keep to the "week" format that way.

Anyway, yesterday was day one, and I hauled out my Slayers NEXT vol. 1 tape. And I realised the sum total of my reaction when I watched the whole thing the first time around.

Poor Zel.

Have I mentioned I despise Xelloss? Have I? No? I do. (And I don't mean that dubbed voice, which is another matter entirely, and the only dub voice on this series that makes me wince. Everyone else, love ♥ love.)

Tonight I pop in vol 2. I'll double up on Sunday to fit all eight into the week.

Speaking of past blasts, while working on another part of my todo list, I've had to revisit the now terminally silent Blue Tumbleweeds. Found this lovely exchange between Kaie and myself back in 2002.

Kaie: **Ponders** What does it take to be goddess of a monotheistic religious system?
LN: Money

Ah, the days of dry wit, how I miss them.

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(10:40 pm PT) - The last roundup.
[link] - (nostalgic)

This is probably the last post I'll made from this place. Don't know about the connection yet, so just to be safe, assume I won't be around until I post again saying otherwise.

Kalli, in case I don't post the WotD on KHYML, would you take care of that for me?

The phone # has changed. So if you need either that or the new address, send me a message and I'll get back to you asap.

Also, during my absence, I'd like to request that those who I gave a Xmas gift to think about it. If you enjoyed it and would like a repeat, want something new, or what something specific, let me know. Oh yes, if you'd like a spiffy rainbow belt, give me your waist size. And if you want a crocheted blanket, that's on a trade system because man, those things take a week and a whole lot of yarn. The x-rated idea for this year: chocolate penis pops. Must be seen to be believed.

That's all. Next post will be from the new insanity HQ affectionately known as home. Until then, improve the quality of life, sedate a rabid, squealing fangirl.

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(9:04 pm PT) - Oooh, bad timing
[link] - (nostalgic)

Curse you Nintendo. I wasn't expecting this disc for another week. Just as I catch an SH muse and crack my knuckles, you send the LoZ promo disc with 8-bit Link wondrous.

Damn your hides.

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(11:15 pm PT) - And fragments of hollow pasts that never were
[link] - (nostalgic)

I have things in my room that I shouldn't.

I have them when I'm not sure why. Remnants of a childhood I never had, that I didn't know I wanted until it was too late.

This is a child's room, a child should be here

happy.

On the door hangs a mesh bag of stuffed animals, a fraction of those hidden in the closet. There only because I ran out of space to give them a home.

If every plushie had a child, there'd be dozens of children here right now.

There's empty bottles kept for shapes or pictures. Paintbrushes, pencils with animal toppers. There's posters and wall scrolls and colors to hide those boring walls.

A fiber optic light sits over my FFX figures, still in the boxes.

I can't see my dresser for all the knick knacks, small toys, books, pencil boards...

The whole set of Narnia books sits alongside Watership Down.

A box of colored pencils sits next to a picture of another child, born solely of my own unconscious needs.

I'm hanging onto something I never had. But I can't bear to let it go.



(At least I can console myself with the decidely adult box of doujinshi sitting by my bed.)

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(1:03 pm PT) - It's not hanging onto the past, but simply rewatching a tape you forgot you had...
[link] - (nostalgic)

I wish I could turn back the clock to, say, 11-12 years ago. That would make me a teen, and today would be Charle's b-day. Could probably go back a bit further, to when SNES was the hotest system around. Yes, that will do. Then I'd be in the living room with him, an over filled ashstray of cigarette butts on the floor between he and I, both laughing as we play TMNT: Turtles in Time... (Or one of those damn Turtles games). Though I know there would still be some problem going on, (at the time I hadn't known about his addiction), for that moment, nothing would matter, really. Sure, he wasn't my father, but if I were to give the title to anyone, it would be him.

Happy birthday, Charles. Try to remember to empty out those ashtrays wherever you are, hmm? And save a game for me.

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